Do you do that?
Identify your angels?
It seems that there have always been angels encircling me all my life. Sometimes I realize they are angels as soon as I first interact with them. At other times I discover them after the fact.
Adrian and Roger Venzo were angels way back in High School. Jan slipped into my life in the Sixth Form. Mr. Tregidgo definitely was an angel. He was my High School English teacher. Whenever he passed me in the hall he would wave and call out, "Shalom!" even though he wasn't Jewish. How did he know I was lonely, alienated and afraid, as an almost solitary Jewish girl in my form in those days? How did he know that whenever he did that I felt supported and belonging.
No doubt about it, Inge was an angel. How awful that I didn't know it at the time. What a waste!
Sometimes I think that while I lived in Israel, angels were nowhere to be found.
In America, they returned. Beautiful Anna - my, how I love and miss her - always will. She was the only person on earth who could persuade me to go down a water slide. I knew I would be safe just as long as she came down behind me. Nancy, always there, hovering, encircling, thinking, feeling, knowing, understanding. I heard from her just today:
I really love you. I always have - and always will. Onward and upward Tamar. Have fun with the "club". Three years .. and you will look to transform things. First year, so glad to be here among all of you; second year, you find your voice among them; third year and beyond, you are starting to lead the pack. Remember - New Orleans? We went to a conference there back in grad school days. So many serious things happen in this world - to live our lives on a small scale and still be a part of the whole world. It takes effort, in a way, to be a "citizen of the world". I knew this would happen - that you wouldn't be here and you would be one of the people I most want to see in a moment. I really love you - I always have and always will.
See what I mean? An angel.
Susan turned me into a butterfly - gave me that image that would save my life. Plus, she's really good at bringing me coffee at five in the morning. What an angel! A person who gives out beauty and wings as gifts.
Danny knows he's one! And he knows why. I told him. Charlie was. I sometimes think he still is [spoken in a whisper] but I had better not voice it too loudly because he will surely think I've gone mad! Lately, at my new job, I think I've met one. Also in blog land I have definitely found one! I received a real, physical card from her - waiting for me in my mailbox at work on my very first day - so she knows who she is!
I cannot describe the feeling. But I just sense an angel when I see, feel, or realize one. They encircle, support, and envelop me with wisdom, energy and a belief in me. There have been times when it feels really dark, cold and lonely, that I close my eyes and summon them to my mind. I sit with all my angels, gathered round me, and we share the quiet together. When my eyes pop open again I feel safe and warm and oh, so much stronger to face the day.
It's really important to identify your angels. Do you do that?