... and there was a new voice, which you slowly recognized as your own, that kept you company as you strode deeper and deeper into the world, determined to do the only thing you could do - determined to save the only life you could save.
From, The Journey, Mary Oliver in Dream Work (1986) pages 38 & 39.
Interestingly, those who played alone calmed down more than the ones who played with peers. The researchers speculate that through imaginative play, which is most easily initiated alone, children build fantasies that help them cope with difficult situations. Scientific American, 2009
"... building fantasies to cope with difficult situations," reminded me of me ... way back when ...
And thankfully, there is always Annie Lennox, accompanying me on the treadmill. Today, with:
Ghosts in My Machine
Oh come and take this pain away Oh come and take this pain away Oh come and set my spirit free
I've seen too much I know too much I hurt too much I feel too much I dread too much I dream too much I'm caught up by the ghosts in my machine
I'm bruised and battered by the storm Can't find a place to keep me warm My mind is broken and forlorn
I think too much I do too much I fall too much I fail too much I cry too much I die too much I'm haunted by the ghosts in my machine
Give me some of that medicine To make me forget (I can't find it) I need something easier (can't find it) 'Cuz I ain't found it yet I ain't found it yet I ain't found it No no no no
Oh womankind was born of pain My soul keeps hurting just the same Oh come and take this pain away
I give too much Get used too much I lose too much Get bruised too much I need too much I bleed too much I'm sleeping with the ghosts in my machine
I said I love you baby Guess I always will I said I love to baby Guess I always will I said I love you baby Guess I always will
I resolve to embrace a new world in the making, planetary peace and inner peace, and I resolve, each day in every way, to vote for love—all kinds of love for all kinds of people in all kinds of circumstances and situations. Bill Ayers