Shedding ...

Quote of the day:

Mindfulness. Awareness. Giving. Love. I could put these thoughts together in coherent sentences, but why bother? You know what I mean. Frank Paynter in my comments.

I am shedding:

• Toxic relationships
• Old thought patterns
• Ancient generational paradigms
• Guilt, guilt, guilt
• Sadness
• Honorable suffering
• Heaviness, body and soul
• Fatigue
• Despair
• Feelings of unworthiness, un-deservedness

Oh, and Jean, the migraine blew away ... poof ... just like that.

I am working on kicking my heels up with joy but I cannot seem to lift off the ground. I simply need to dance more.

A year ago at Tamarika: Shattered Dreams (Update)

Comments

[tamarika]

How wonderful to find you back here on my site, Ernesto. I am enjoying reading your posts from London now. It is, indeed, amazing how we keep in touch with one another all over the blog network as we come and go virtually and physically.

[Ernesto Priego]

Very interesting how memory works and the role blog's archives can play. Going back to your post I found you had linked to a post of mine from a year ago as well. A year ago I was missing my days in Europe, and Jean commented about the nostalgia I expressed then about London as well. And now you have moved blogs and I have returned to London. I was feeling particularly nostalgic today, but feeling a kind of nostalgia very different from the one I was feeling a year ago. This nostalgia is for what is absolutely impossible to recover again. Maybe that's what anostalgia is all about. In Cristina Peri-Rossi's words, a poet I find myself drawn back to again and again:

Ítaca existe
a condición de no recuperarla

Thank you for letting us read your blog, Tamar.

[tamarika]

Danny,
I know what you mean about sadness being a friend and helpful and of course it is a part of being human because loss is a part of us in all sorts of ways, continually. However, I have been deeply sad this past year and a half and that "state" has started to lift recently. It is a great relief to shed this heavy state of sadness. But I will always think of sadness as my friend, too, because it such a part of who I am - who we all are. As my beloved advisor, Tom Frantz said: "It's all about grief."

Hello there, Cheryl,
Your comment is so deeply true about losing our core or burying it under all that "stuff." And, my dear good friend, it is you who is so important to me as you accompany me on my journey to uncover my core. Perhaps one of these days you and I will go skipping down the path kicking our heels up in mid-air ... light, joyful and alive!

[Danny]

I wouldn't shed sadness too quickly. I've found it to be a real friend and helpful tool if I'm able to acknowledge it instead of pretending it's not there!

[Cheryl]

Shedding can be a wonderful expereince. As women, we tend to take on more and more until our core is smothered. Once we start shedding, it can be hard to find the our core again. Keep searching, it's there. The you beneath the guilt, saddness, suffering, dispair, and fatigue. The you that is light, joyful, insightful, wise, alive, and important to so many people.