Me as me

Revelation of the day: (discovered on my morning walk)

It occurs to me that I go to therapy as if it was supervision for me as a therapist. 

Not as if it was therapy for me as me. 

Indeed, I go through life observing, listening, trying to understand the other person's point of view, and feeling numb and detached most of the time - as if I was practicing being a therapist for humankind! 

These are not intimate interactions. 

This is the way I keep myself safe. 
This is how I delude myself into thinking I am in control, 
or keep from letting my guard down.
This way I keep me away from being an authentic me.

A year ago at Mining Nuggets: Being me

Comments

[tamarika]

Elaine,
We are fellow travelers in this journey, for sure.

Marion,
Yes indeed. The more I move the more I know. That's why I adore my morning walks!
Exactly!

[Marion Barnett]

What an important insight!

"The more you move the more you know" Bev Boss

[Elaine of Kalilily]

I've just gotten back into therapy to try to find that "center" that I lost while living with my mother and brother for three stressful years. It's a neverending journey, it seems.